Its been sooooo long since ive written.. I dont know what to write.
So I had no computer for a number of months, and then Blogdrive was being ghetto and wouldnt work for me.. so i hate it. Ok perhaps i dont but i can claim to.

I went to work yesterday and it was soooo busy!! ahh!! Yeah I work at Papa Murphys now.. its great. Sometimes. But then i went to the after-game dance that was, apparently, after the football game. It was fun. I hung out with  mis compadres like Caiterz and Jen, and of course Perrie, and Fuzzy and Jeff and Caiterz new homie Matt. IT was chill. and then Matt T. wants to talk and hang out so we talked and hung out till like 1 in the morning.. LONG ASS DAY..

Can you believe that its already fuckin Senior year? Im almost done with high school. IT went by soooo fast its not even funny!! Ahh and ive got soo much stuff going on.. Im nervous that Im going to lose my job. I have all my FFA Stuff and i want to be an Outdoor School Counselor, and I am the football team manager at the High School. Alright, well.. Ive gotta get going, my brothers are here, but i will be updating soon!!

its been a hella long time since i updated. My computer at home is fried because my sister got a virus, so im just chillin at my dads house makin an entry.

so yea umm.. caiterz is coming camping with me!! im soooooooooooooooooooooo excited!! were going to have funfunfun even though were going to be with my ENTIRE family.. my little brothers drive me insane but oh wellerz it shall be fun with my homie with me lol!!

perrie is moving to scappoose in august. it sucks. but as ive said before were staying together so thats good. i love him hes awesome.

check out this website::

www.43things.com

its actually pretty cool me likey!!

well im not really in the mood to update.. so yea..

OH!! i bought a skirt and a sundress today!! Isnt that AmAzInG?!?!

Perrie is moving. No matter what happens were staying together. No matter what.. I love him so much this sucks SO much ass.. ive got to keep faith that everythings going to be okay.. if i dont keep faith, ill break.. fuck, if one more thing goes wrong.. then sugar im going down..

too much drama, too much bullshit, too many lies and broken promises..
God im so sick and tired of being left.

So yea Im just chillin and talkin to peeps online.. yea.. life is boring tonight..

the past three nights are a completely different story, however.. maha..

I have to keep chug-chugging along now so im out.. rather dull entry.. Caiterz I simply cannot wait for you to get back. I have a LOT to tell you..

the devil made me do it

so today was National Skate Holiday.. i got to the parlk before 9 this morning, and nobody else showed up until 11.. so that was kind of lame.. i went to the church for a half an hour and wandered around.. i listened to my ring tones for probably an hour.. but yea then Perrie and Kevin showed up and all was well. Zach showed up. some Bikerz showed up. The Montgomerys and Trenton showed up. and we went street skating. it was fun we went down to the Fern and got yelled at by Cleatus.. funny shit.. but yea then i had to go home it was GAY..

i might get my ass kicked tonite.. lets hope not.. its been just barely a month since i last got hit.. i wanted to go for a new record.. time will tell.


Your element is Wind. You are the guy/girl that is
unpredictable. No one knows what you're going
to do next and what you're in the mood for.
Studying is not your thing and you would rather
go to a party than stay home. Life is just for
fun and you need to be free to live according
to you. You waste no time on lies, if you feel
or think one thing you say it even if it hurts.
Of course, people may be quite upset but that
doesn't really bother you. Its not that you
don't care, because you do, but in these
situations it's a waste of time. You live up in
the clouds and are quite a dreamer about life.
People often consider you beautiful, but harsh
and they would think twice before getting to
know you. But once they do, they'll learn that
you are always willing to take yourself and
your friends on adventures. Never will it be a
boring time with you and your friends
appreciate that. You are not often seen sad,
but you have your times. If someone has been
mean to you, you can quite easily trash-talk
them for betraying you. Nevertheless, you are
most of the time a good spirit who just want to
have some fun.
What is your element? [with pics + 7 outcomes + detailed answers!]
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I lOvE yOu PeRrIe DoNt WoRrY aBoUt A tHiNg ThErEs NoThInG yOu CoUlD dO

Yea so i couldnt go camping. My dads so gay. Its retarded because i went last year and hes just a Nazi like that. A controlling asshole. And its not like he really gives a damn about me anyways..
 IM SO SORRY CAITERZ!! I LOVE YOU!!
I will try to text and call you.. i lova-lova youz!!

I cant get Perrie out of my head. My sweet, sweet love might move. In fact he probably will. Im scared, and i dont know what to do or think. I sort of want to puke. Im scared of losing the love of my life, but then again i know everything will be okay, and if were meant to continue being us this wont affect anything. Long distance relationship.. i can handle it. I think.
I just feel like im being left behind again.
I know he doesnt mean to or want to, and its not his fault. So Ive gotta keep telling myself that whatever happens will be for his best interests. Ive got to trust that Dalece and Jimmy know what theyre doing and that they will make the best decision that they can.
I just want whats best for them, even if it kills me in the process.

This is me, wearing my heart on my sleeve again and praying it wont get ripped off and stomped on.

its raining. no going to town today. No learning to skate at the park.
But my ollies still suck.
so oh well.

so yea im bored. I got my cell taken away last night. its REDICULOUS and POINTLESS and there is no logic behind this at all.. she just wants to be a poop..

im taking quizilla quizzes.. heres some results.. thats all the excitement ive got going on..

Your wise quote is: "Be kind to unkind people, they probably need it the most" by Ashleigh Brilliant.
You try to look beyond apperance, try to give people second chances and are probably very kind. Understanding is your biggest personality trait, and thoose you can see through should be grateful. If they aren't already. You detest narrow minded people, because they can't see what's really there. Facades is not your thing and you strive to always be who you really are.

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You need someone loyal. People have let you down since forever and you have always been left by yourself. Your life spark is now barely flickering and there is a big feeling of emptiness and hopelessness. You don't know what to do anymore in your life and everything has a sense of meaningless to it. Though you're not only sad, you also carry hate and many grudges on people. You have a hard time letting people in, but with your history you don't even desire that so much anymore.

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yea so im bored shopping around at Fueled By Ramen.. its all good though they have sweet shirts.. I think im going to do a lot of my school shopping here.. Freakin Sweet..

Yea i went to the park today with Caiterz and Perrie.. it was a lot of fun. I went down the pyramid!! granted, I fell, but i still went down it. I felt kinda rediculous but now im more determined than ever to learn. Ive got the whole rolling in a straight line thing down good!! Ive decided that I dont know how to ollie because i can only ollie 20% of the time and even then they arent even really ollies so yea its kinda absurd but oh well.. im learning!!

I got so sunburnt at the park yesterday it was crazy!! and my left side got more sunburnt then the right so that sucks.. Im going to have the WORST tan lines ever.. but oh well at least im getting color..

I feel really guilty because I have like half of Perries wardrobe in my possession. Seriously. like 6 items of clothing that are/were his. i feel bad about it but i borrow them and either they get dirty or theyre already dirty and I have to take them home to wash them. Thats just how it goes.

I got in trouble about my phone usage today. It was rediculous. So yea i dunno im pissed about that. its just bullshit and shes just looking for an excuse to get mad at me and punish me.. God she pisses me off so bad. but i dont want to get into it about my mom, or even my parents for that matter.

I really REALLY hope Perrie doesnt move. That would suck. I just know whatever happens is going to happen for the best, so however it ends.. ill have faith in it.

Megan, I dont know if youll ever read this, but i just have one thing to say: be careful. with all the shit youre getting into.. i know im not your friend anymore but i still dont wanna see you getting charcoal shoved into your stomach or whatnot.. just be careful.

FINALLY first day of summer.. how sweet.. fucking wicked tight. But yea i might go into town later, I was going to go hang out with Caiterz, but she cant go.. so I might just go to see whos there.. maybe run into Perrie.. ok im going to.

Good times.. Im so glad its finally summer.. CAITERZ YOU SHOULD SPEND THE NIGHT TOMORROW!!

umm.. nothing exciting happens in my life.
Ive run out of things to say.

JOSH EMAILED ME!!
Josh luv ya kid ill email you back later.. you rock!!




heres a some sappy song lyrics that make me think of Perrie.
If you dont wanna read lovey-doveyness, or cuteness of the sort..
 I suggest you stop reading this entry.

 "Baby Boy" ~ Big Brovaz

From the day that I saw you
I knew that we would pursue
Cause the chemistry
We felt that day
Felt so real, and so true
Looking back on a year
We spent together
How it’s been, what
We went through
Although we’ve had our
Little ups and downs
We’ve still pulled through

Baby girl you’re my
World my everything
I wanna lace you with
Diamonds and every ring
Give you everything you
Dream and fantasize
Cause you can tell me
That you love me
Looking in my eyes
You keep it real with me,
I keep it real with you
You keep on loving me,
I’ll keep on loving you
Keep doing what you do,
I feel your whole aura
And I can’t wait to hook up
Again tomorrow baby - what

(Chorus::)

My love for you will never end
You’ll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps
On passing by
You’ll always be my baby boy.


Everytime I look at you,
I can’t believe
I’ve found a love so true (and)
I took my time to put
My trust in you
I must admit it was so hard to do
And every minute that i
Spend with you
You make me believe i
Have nothing to lose and
Deep down I always knew
That you would be mine

Do you believe in destiny
Because I got a funny feeling
This was meant to be
Without you I’d be lost,
I need you next to me
Preferably in the house full
Of luxuries and little kids
from day one I was sprung,
Knew you was gonna be one
Cause my heart spoke for the
Very first time in a long while
And every time you smile, I can see us
walking up the aisle with you
Carrying my child c’mon

(Chorus::)

My love for you will never end
You;ll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps
On passing by
You’ll always be my baby boy

If you were to go, I don’t know
You’re the only one who
Sweeps me off my feet
Makes my soul go weak
The only one who makes
My heart wanna beat and i,
I could never live without you
You know that what I feel
Has to be true
Cause you’re my, my sweet love

Ever since the first time,
That I looked into your eyes
I knew that you were
Gonna be mine
Feeling you from the inside,
When you’re not by my side
You’re the only girl
That’s on my mind
I never knew a love like
This, a love so strong
A vision so picture perfect
It could never be wrong
Along the way, you’re gonna
See you belong with jay
I might have to marry you
One day baby eh..

(Chorus/Outro)

SCHOOLS OUT FOR SUMMER!!
SCHOOLS OUT FOREVER!!

Okay maybe not forever but one can only wish right? so yea im probably going to hang out with Caiterz tomorrow.. Kaylyn wanted me to go with her to Lincoln City today but i was already hanging out with Perrie.. I feel so busy suddenly!! its fun though..

you know, I had been hella scared of Perrie possibly moving.. dont get me wrong I still am, but you know the more i think about it, whatever happens Im sure Jimmy and Dalece are putting a lot of thought into the decision and whatever it is Im sure it will be for the best, no matter how hard it may seem at the time.. Im coming to terms with this. Everythings going to be okay, im starting to realize. I have faith after all.

So yea.. umm.. i dont know what ive got coming up, but i know my schedules busy.. i need a job.. i dont really have much to talk about.. Project POW needs to start and start soon..

Im going to go practice my ollie.

So yea not much happened today.. Kallas 18th birthday!! Perrie wasnt at school today, he was out fishin.. and all that jazzy nonsense.. he was really tired when i talked to him.. yea..

Caiterz Birthday Is Tomorrow!! Shes gonna Be The Big 1-7!! YAY!!

Mike called me.. Im not sure who he was ruder to, me or Braden, but either way it was offensive so yea..

Tomorrow is my last day of school!! Can You FREAKIN believe that!?!? Its so rediculous.. INSANITY!!

So yea I have a boring life i know.. i have nothing to talk about because any thoughtful or ponderous-ness i may have had earlier has been tattered and scattered.. so im leaving again, but before I do, HAve some parting lyrics from my friends..



"Get Busy Living Or Get Busy Dying (Do Your Part To Save The Scene And Stop Going To Shows)" by Fall Out Boy

This has been said so many times that I'm not sure if it matters
We never stood a chance
And I'm not sure if it matters
If you are the shores, I am the waves begging for big moons
I’m mailing letters to addresses in a ghost town
(your secret's out)

I know this hurts, it was meant to (it was meant to)
Your secret's out and the best part is it isn't even a good one
And it's mind over (you don't don't) matter

This has been said so many times that I'm not sure if it matters
But it must be said again that all us boys are just screaming
Into microphones for attention
Because we're just so bored
We never knew that you would pick it apart, oh
I'm falling apart to songs about hips and hearts
(your secret's out)

I know this hurts, it was meant to (it was meant to)
Your secret's out and the best part is it isn't even a good one
And it's mind over (you don't don't) matter

I used to obsess over living,
Now I only obsess over you
Tell me you'd like boys like me better
In the dark lying on top of you
This has been said so many times that I'm not sure if it matters [x4]

I know this hurts, it was meant to (it was meant to)
Your secret's out and the best part is it isn't even a good one
And it's mind over (you don't don't don't don't) matter

[Talking:]
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How my worst fears are letting out
He said why put a new address
On the same old loneliness
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Now talking's just a waste of breath
And living's just a waste of death
And why put a new address
On the same old loneliness
And this is you and me
And me and you
Until we've got nothing left